What {I Didn't Know} Dreams Are Made Of

When I was a little girl, playing in my room and lost in my dream role of being a Momma to all my baby dolls -- my dreams didn't include getting my baby doll in a wheel chair. I didn't ever envision when I met my husband-to-be at the age of 17 that we would spend a large part of our lives tube feeding our second child.

Nope. Those "dreams" just didn't exist.

Until today.

Because today... this happened.

My sweet Landree girl was fitted for her wheelchair that was delivered today. It was, in a lot of ways, a bittersweet day. But to be completely honest, it was much more sweet than bitter. It was joyful. Absolutely joyful.

My sweet girl, who is a couple of weeks shy of being three years old, can't do what other three year olds do. She was born with limitations that are making the first few years of her life a challenge to get around. She's been so go with the flow, and has spoiled me with her laid back ways. She rarely complains. But today, she was able to have something just for her. Something that will accommodate, make it easy for her to get around, and eventually, something she will have control over. She doesn't know that feeling too well. The feeling of control. 

But she felt it today.

And she loved it.

Did I ever think I would be in my living room fitting my child for her wheel chair? No. Did I ever dream about it? Certainly not. I can tell you, though, that the joy I feel as Landree's mom is different than the joy I feel as Annabelle and Zoe's mom. It's just a very different feeling, and it a lot of ways, better. The little things for Landree are big things. Things we take advantage of as parents of typically developing needs. So, when the little things occur - they're actually very, very big things. And, oh so overwhelmingly joyful.

My dreams are fulfilled and have come true. God's grace has been extended to me through Annabelle, Landree and Zoe. Each one different and each one a huge blessing. God's sovereignty over my life is far more rewarding than what I sat around and dreamed about as a child. I'm honored to be a Momma to three beautiful girls. I'm honored to be entrusted with Landree and all of her needs. God has used her situation to inspire, encourage and prepare the hearts of others. 

My prayer is to continue to glorify Christ through the hurdles we've faced and continue to face with Landree. I'm thankful for this dream He's given me to live out. I couldn't ask for anything more. Or better. It's what I've always dreamed of, but never knew it was what I wanted. And I do. I want this life I've been given and everything about it. Especially my marriage and my kids.

Today, was a dream. A sweet, sweet dream. My girl squealed and giggled and smiled so much when we put her in that chair and pushed her around. She took ownership of her chair. And loves it.

Couldn't ask for more.